Well its already February and the time has flown by. I guess Ive been in another world. Just been trying to get through each day the best I can for me. Let’s see, what’s happened since I last posted….
Several Doctor appointments, I am now on Thyroid meds as well as Birth Control to stop my cycles. I Basically have no blood count. It’s so low they have me on iron as well as women’s vitamins too. So because of the Thyroid meds I am losing hair. That kind of freaks me out. Ive decided that one of two things will happen… Either it starts to grow back in like they said it would, or i will go bald and have to find a bunch of cute little beanie skully caps to wear.. lol
The last few weeks or so I have been hurting quite alot due to an Endometrial Biopsy. I bled for almost 2 weeks from it. I’m hoping that these BC pills do what they are suppose to so I don’t bleed anymore. I had bled for almost three weeks, a week for my cycle before the biopsy and then the almost two weeks after. That really was not a pleasant experience.
I have also blocked anyone from my messengers that only has one motive, and it;s one that doesn’t match what I need or want in my life. Needless to say about 10 people went bye-bye. I was sick of hearing shit like your such a cool person (but I’m not cool enough to date), let’s hang out (which means come pick my ass up so we can fuck), or the all famous I miss you, i wish you were here ( again, I’m still not good enough to date, I’m just fuck material)…how lame…
Well I got news for you… no more… if all you can do is yahell me and talk about someone else your interested in having that relationship with while at the same time telling me we should hang out.. I’m not for it.. I’m done. Honestly it hurt my feelings to hear that, because frankly one of you has always known that I was interested. So whatever. I am just not good enough for you to have a relationship with.. That’s fine, cus frankly I am better off alone anyway. Especially after what I went through with the last one. That still breaks my heart. To know such a wonderful person is so lost, just makes me want to die inside for that person.
I need people in my life who will take the time to be more than a fuck friend or a fair weather friend. I need real friends. The kind that are there for you when you need them to be. None of you who I blocked, fit that category. And you only have yourselves to blame, because of they way you are. I don’t need it.
I have been coloring pixels to pass the time. I just love learning all these cool things. How to shade, colors that work well together and seeing the enjoyment others get from what I create. My Pixel site is coming along well I must say. The theme I have just completed for it rocks. It is so cute, and it will work well after valentines day too. Come on by and take a peek.
I am off to bed right now, I am rather tired today. Check back soon for more. I plan on posting again tomorrow.
